The older I get

The less I care about things that don't matter.

Lately I have been setting goals and reaccessing my life and I have found that their is alot of unnecessary bullshit ( for lack of a better word) that needs to be weeded out.

Maybe it is that time in my life where i really find out who I am and what I am about.

I have found the following to be true:

1. Relationships- I have found that more than anything how you treat others and your relationship with others is what can hurt and help you become the person you are going to be. I have had relationships mess with my head, but I have also learned most of life's lessons from them.

I think the issue here is when we think of relationships we immediately think of that special someone.... This is not what I am talking about. I am talking about a relationship with the following.

Sub Categories:

1. God (or your higher being)- I for one think this is the most important relationship that sometimes doesn't get as much attention as the other ones. This is the relationship that helps us deal with every aspect of our life and if we are unable to perfect this relationship we are wasting our time in other avenues of our life.

2. Family- This is another relationship in life that we do not choose. ( CLEARLY HAHA) The fact of the matter is after everything is said and done our family will always be our family. The older I get the more I now know how much this matters. How important it is to develop a relationship with these people. You can learn so much through these members.

3. Career- Yes believe it or not we have many relationships in our careers. One might even go as far as to say you spend more time with people you work with than any other person in your life. Many people are with these people for 40 plus hours every week. Learn from these people, be friend these people......

4. Friendships- Regarding my first statement on weeding the B.S. out of your life this is what I was referring to. This is the only avenue of life that YOU get to choose. I think we are so used to having other areas of our life controlled that we do not control the people we let in and out our lives, we befriend whoever is convenient. This is such an important part of relationships because all of our other relationships have led us to choose these people. Our other relationships are also effected by the people we choose to put into this category.

And in my opinion our friendships are a direct representation of the person we are. Do you want to be like your friends? If not choose more wisely!

5.Yourself- Although I list this relationship as the least important if you do not have a solid relationship with yourself you will incapable of having any of the above relationships. It is only once you understand you that you are able to learn and experience true relationships.

Alright I know my thoughts can be all over the place, but I treat this more like a journal than anything else. I have my relationships on the brain and I want to perfect all of them to be the woman I know I can be.

Worst Blogger

I am the worst blogger ever. You would think with everything on my mind I would be in a rush to write it all down and scream to the world, however I am always busy.

Recap:

Diet:

Diet not doing so well.. I start everything in life so well I just never seem to finish anything. ( Much like this blog with my daily entries)

I think I start out in life with 200 percent and by day 3 I have 20 percent. I need to find some balance in my life.

Career:

I am doing so well in my career and am so thankful to be where I am in life. Who would of ever thought I would be The Director of Finance of one of the fastest growing companies in the country?

Me!!!! I always had faith in myself even when others did not! I knew I was going to be someone one day and I am well on my way to arriving!

I wish I could show everyone that doubted me how my life turned out and its only getting better.

Abigail:

She si growing up so fast its truly amazing! She loves disney princesses and dinosaurs! She is such a little hippy child it is hilarious. She is always outside exploring with rocks... but then wants to come in and put her jewlery and high heels on! I have the best of all worlds with this little angel.

She is really learning. I honestly think she knows what every word is now. She amazes me with every day.

Alright Alright with everything going well in my life everyone keeps asking: When is the next baby?

The answer: Never

Yes that is right Jack and I have discussed it and we are done having children. To make this official he will be having a vasectomy in Febuary!

You know what this means!!!

I can get the evil mirena out! I do not reccomend this to anyone. LISTEN LADIES:

The commercial for the mirena looks nice... Big house... Career.. beautiful children.... But the mirena gives you none of that haha!!! ( just kidding)

IT IS PURE EVIL!

The doctor told me that if he gave it to me I would probably gain 20 pounds and possibly a few mood swings... But on the plus side I would no longer have a monthly visit from my friend Mr. period.

I figured occasional mood swings would be ok ( I would have those anyway) And 20 pounds, well if I had another baby that owuld happen so sure why not!

W-R-O-N-G!

Two years later I am 65 pounds heavier and a nut case! However my mood swings have probably caused me to be assertive enough to land the career I am in ( haha) but this is besides the point)

Once I get this devil creation out of me I hope to return to a slimmer more fullfilling life...

Well I have brought you up to date! I will try to be more regular....

Before I go I have to leave you with some great news!!!

I stopped wearing cute shoes because of the weight gain ( heels hurt too bad).

Yesterday i made a discovery that will make me *hip* again

DR SCHOLLS MAKES HEELS, WEDGES, and BOOTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Go get some today!

Day 8

I succesfully started my workout routine. It was not much of one but I have to start somewhere. Yesterday I ran for twenty minutes. The weather was nice and I actually enjoyed it.

I have encountered one problem. I can't work out until 8 because I have to cook dinner and spend time with my family. When I go and work out at 8 oclock I come back home and I am full of energy. I can not be full of energy at 8 pm because I need to be asleepy by 10 pm.

Does anyone have any suggestions on how I can fit working out into my schedule? please do not suggest for me to run at 5 AM because I am not a morning person.

I am starting to see small results,n and that makes me happy.

The Slim Fast drinks are kind of driving me crazy because while I sit here I want to munch on something but this will pass.

I am loving the motivation from my family and friends.

GOAL SETTING

DAY 7

I have set many goals for myself in life and I would say 8 out of 10 times I have achieved them. I am very happy with my life but I am always trying to find new ways to improve the quality of it.

For the next 90 days I will be blogging about something I am constantly thinking about but never really talk about...... WEIGHT LOSS.

In my life I have focused on a number of things My Family, My friendships, and my career and when it comes to these things my life is at an absolute high point, but my health has defintly taken a backseat to all of these things.

Weight is something I have battled since I was a little girl but luckily for a big part of my life I was able to keep most of it off.

When I began my career I started to sit on my laptop for hours on end and the pounds started to multiply.

The same thing happened after I had my daughter I just quit being active.

Since my pre- pregnancy body I have gained 50 pounds and I vow to lose this weight.

This problem has gotten bigger than I can handle. It is not about wearing my skinnny keans ( which I hope to wear again) but it is about running with my daughter. The purpose in having kids young is so that you can keep up with them and I can not.

Last week I began the dieting portion. I stopped drinking sodas, and switched to crystal light. I assumb this is why I dropped 8 pounds instantly....

I will continue on the diet and this week I will start exercising daily.

The evenings and weekends are the toughest as I enjoy a nice glass of wine and even that has to be cut out.....

Please Join me and watch me as I reach this goal. I will be blogging about this and any helpful tips you have for me will be appreciated.

Bring Out Another Thousand

Some once told me BOAT stands for Bring out another thousand. I thought they just had bad luck.......

So the starter went out on the boat right before last weekend. Might I had that last weekend was the perfect boating weekend. Oh well no big deal!!! We called around and found a place that could fix it.


Then turns out it was the starter... The guy said we would still have it back by Tonight because well we are leaving town.

THEN THE HORROR SETS IN! Apparently their is some loose aluminum and they have to remove all teh aluminum or it will break the new starter!

So here I sit patiently waiting..... Already up to a grand.... how much more shall it cost us?

And will we be able to make our vacation?


That is the thousand dollar question?

Tuesday- The Aftermath

I did it. I sucessfully planned a two year olds birthday party. It went pretty well if I do say so myself. I am very impressed with myself. The people were great, the cake was perfect, Elmo scared the kids but that was expected. Abby enjoyed all of her gifts.

But I am sad to say that its over because now the terrible twos are setting in. She has been a real terror yesterday and today. I am trying to be patient but its a battle and one that I am going to win.

She has no many new toys and clothes I am kind of stressed on where to put everything!! I have limited storage space... And her entire playroom is already full. She is truly blessed.

When Jack and I were at Kroger in the line before Abby's birthday I started to smile and he asked me "Why are you smiling?" And I said " I am so glad I am not poor." Lol and he looked at me like I was crazy. The thing is I didn't mean it in a bad way I am just so happy that I have enough money to enjoy life.

God has blessed me and I am not sure why. Defintly not because I deserve it! I have done everything not to deserve it and yet God has blessed me with a beautiful family, a great house, and an amazing job! I just wnat to Thank him everyday, because I know has quickly as it all came it can quickly go!

It will be lake time again in 4 days! Every weekend is like a mini vacation and I am loving it :)

4 days

It is so hard to believe that in 4 days my little girl will be 2 years old. I am so excited I can hardly work! Well I better not say that because I have had tons of work this morning, but I keep party planning as well.

I really need to quit shopping for this birthday party as my pocket book is getting thinner and thinner.... I really have been better lately, I don;t think I have bought her anythign unecessary.

I have only been buying educational stuff.. learning...music....stuff to help her with art work.... This is the year she is going to learn so many things!

I just bought the your baby can read series and I am so anxious to start doing it with her. I think this will be amazing to teach her and watch her grow.

Ok on to the party!!!!!!!!!

ELMO will be at my house at 3 olcock on Saturday. I think she is going to flip out when he brings her some presents!

I have ordered a cookie monster cake, which is made up of cupcakes and cookies.... I have bought lots of decorations and I am hoping this will be the shindig of the year. I guess we will have to wiat and find out.

Every day is more and more fun with my abigail. I love the fact taht she can talk and tell me what is going on. I love her so much!